Well lookie here, I'm back :/ updates? Ah... I got diagnosed with Anxiety, Autism, ADHD, and OCD. Haha that's like evil AO3 so like... A3O. Or OA3. I'll work on that. Anyways I have meds now! Hahaha........ ok. Ok I don't care today.

Hrmmmm thoughts, thoughts >:m ahhh I wanna use my blog more. I typically use it when like.. I'm outside. Or in the middle of a curriculum. And I've been in NEITHER!!! I'm taking a semester off so I won't be back on that evil campus til like January. BUT ENOUGH ABOUT SCHOOL!!!!!!! I want to talk girls, yugioh, and society. Haha wait I should make that the blog title

I've gotten like... way into Thea Stilton Lately. I've made some fan art too but lost steam when I saw the only group of active people there on tumblr were like... into RPF porn of Minecraft YouTubers…? Weird. You can't "don't like don't look" your way out of sexualizing a real person against their will. You're just a sexual deviant. This was supposed to be the girls paragraph but like that's one thing I don't get about people. You know if there's friction with making porn of a ship/character you can just... find a different one, right...? Like, there's millions of characters you're going to find one similar. You will not die if someone does not want you to make porn of them dude. It's shipping not life savings, get a grip!

People have this "it is what it is" mentality with literally everything and it's so annoying. "That's just how the internet is so this content creator should just learn how to accept it instead of being upset." Nigga, HUH? Yes, that is just how the internet is, but that doesn't mean I should have to accept that. Killing women on a whim cause they looked at you wrong used to just be how the world was dude. Obviously nothing will change in their lifetime of being upset about it but years of people not just accepting shitty status quo is what actually gave way to change. You people just don't feel like caring about anything.

People have this weird idea that anything discussed on the internet doesn't matter unless it's someone flat out saying all niggers should die, or something. They have this idea that since it's on a computer screen it's in this magical seperate world where nothing is actually real, like some other subset of fiction or a different cyber dimension. I can't even begin to describe how utterly ridiculous this logic is. Things on the internet are typed by a real person who have those real beliefs, and that since whatever discourse being discussed isn't a "conversation that would be had in real life," it holds no actual value. Newsflash, the internet is real life you fucking neanderthals?? The world isn't the same as it was 20 years ago, and the discourse has advanced and shifted to be online, because that's where it's most convenient and where people from many perspectives can convene. Most people online are there because they literally cannot go to places where these important discussions are held IRL. They're disabled, have a homophobic family, have no time, have no energy, have no money, etc. this stupid thought process is just another byproduct of idiots who are scared of truly caring about something that matters for once in their cheeto infested pornrotted lives. And I'm not just talking about racist chuds on twitter, I mean the tumblr assholes who regurgitate the same "what if the world was made of pudding" quote and cream in their pants at the thought of reaching "true peace." And nudge nudge, true peace to them means saying "both sides are stupid for arguing which make me the smart one for thinking critically of both sides," before going back to reading the 5th Hannibal porn fanfic they've read that day and fantasizing about two brothers barebacking. You people contribute genuinely nothing to society, actively try to halt any sort of progress, and are terrified of the idea that maybe, just maybe, so many arguments about "stupid little things" happen is because byproducts of larger issues trickle their way through every aspect of life, and being aware and calling them out as they happen is a key part in increasing awareness, even if it happens at a rate you personally cannot comprehend—and even though those arguments are usually about the bigger picture anyway and reducing it to being about the smaller incident is a tactic to invalidate said discourse. People who truly care about race have labeled these instances as microaggressions, but unfortunately when it comes to literally anything else, tumblrites and twitterinas are a bit slow on the intake.

Personally, I believe that these people that spread this rhetoric are only pro LGBT because they themselves are LGBT, not because they'd be the type to care regardless. Those that actually care about anything go out of their way to try to understand what they don't agree with, despite how "insignificant" it may seem, who's talking about it, how "valid" it is in relation to their life, or how frequently it's mentioned.

Back to yuri though!

I've been watching HeartCatch Precure, and I'm planning on watching Happiness Charge or Yes Precure next. I know that's not actually yuri... I'm sorry.... I've just been putting off properly getting into Precure for a while now........ but Erika and Tsubomi? Gay. Like, totally gay. Yuri (the character)? Gay. I might regret this when I finish the show but as @selfcest.com oh my god I ship Yuri and the Dark Precure. I was watching with my friends and the MOMENT she said that she was yuri me and my friends SCREAMED. I yelled out loud "IT'S SELFCEST YUUURRRIIIII????" And my mom definitely heard me XDD. The other character I really love... she was yellow... Tsubomi had a crush on her and it was the cutest thing ever!! I kept taking screenshots!!! And also, she's transfem. Me and the friend I featured on my blog before, Ang—well actually it's Angela now LMAO—both agree! Speaking of which, Thea Stilton. Those girls are fucking faggots I swear to Kirk. And after reading the comics and seeing a trans poster in Colette's room I was sold on them. They're IN A POLYCULE. NICKY AND PAMELA ARE THEIR BUTCHES COLETTE VIOLET AND PAULINE ARE THE FEMMES.

Fuck, I wanted to talk about yugioh but, ehhhh don't really feel like it in this post (though it makes little difference, I think). Can't I just be like... Bakuragender? Batgender? Well I can be batgender if I want to, actually. Sometimes I feel like a guy and sometimes I feel like a girl, man. I'm never actually either I just feel like both. What does this have to do with yugioh? When I'm dudemoding I get so much gender envy from Bakura. It's actually fucking unreal. Like, I'll be on the verge of going through with HRT just to look like a black Bakura. And then sometimes the pendulum (heh) moves back and I'm like well nooo actually I'm a pretty princess and I love glitter and pink and shit! I know I can like both and I do and theyre not mutually exclusive but they're just separate genders I personally experience depending on whatever I feel... non binarisms and wotnot.

If I had things my way... I'd be a cool magic celestial mage who can change my body at will >:T