So here's the sitch

Past week has been weird. Helped a friend out, they were in a bad situation which is what the last post was for. I haven't felt that much empathy for someone before, it felt unnatural and I disliked it. Either way, I wish the best for him. I've been meaning to talk to them more because I want to befriend him like ACTUALLY but tbh I straight up don't have much to talk about. Damn it, all the people I wanna befriend are slipping away from me !! I don't have a "place" in any friend group anymore, it fucking sucks. I need someone to sweep me off my feet into their friend group. At the very least, I became good friends with one person :] It's very nice to me, and i'm able to talk to it without feeling like i'm forcing out words. It's been refreshing, but I need to talk to her more so I can feel actually relaxed when we DM lol

Haven't been watching anime as much as I should, I've been too focused on socializing. I hate socializing, but what other choice do I have now? I have to get it over with and I'd rather it be sooner rather than later. I don't have enough drive to be alone and I'm not willing to feel lonely for god knows how long. I'd only have one person i could talk to daily, and as fondly as I remember my days with Bon, I'm not allowing myself to be in that situation again. It's too dangerous.

Also hypersexuality is flaring up ! Worst fucking time ! I don't want to think about that 24 fucking 7 and the new HSBC flash is NOT helping karkat flashed hi

Omg wait can I talk about that? I will.

That flash was CRAZY !! I mean, I spoiled myself but it's okay cause idk wtf was going on. but HOORAY F OR HYPE MOMENTS AND AURA!!

Here it is, it is FUCKING CRAZEE!! Jade snapping everyone's necks when she revived and Jake going nakedhope mode and Vriska's new form and maybe Jane dying ??? and Sollux crying over his pizza and the two boyfriends on the battlefield and Rose's reference to Monster adn Karkat freaking the fuck out over Dave's corpse !!!!! AAGGGGHHHH!!!!!! I can't wait to understand everything I'm so excited !!!!!

Anyhoo, I don't think I'll be pursuing my crush :T Not that I honestly ever intended to. I mean, if he said he was interested I'd obviously reciprocate, but I'm not interested in getting my hopes up for waiting for any offshot chance. I had a feeling it wouldn't work out since the day I realized, and I had my suspicions confirmed. I don't really mind, I do genuinely want to be his friend cause he's nice to talk to. Very bemusing !

Anyways the first update of the comic I work on came out !!! I did around half of the panels this update, it was so jarring to see!! I think everyone should go read it but i don't feel like linking it rn lol maybe later. Here's a picture of Kazu Decker for the post cover because I was too lazy to get a gif

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